I was walking down the street about a year ago; it was during my lunch break. I had my headphones in my ears and listening to a podcast of some sort, I believe it had something to do with finding abundance in your life. This is when a co-worker saw me and said that she had never seen anyone walking down the street looking so peaceful! That is when I knew my life was right again.
Let’s rewind to April 10, 2017. The worst day of my life at that time, but looking back on it today, the best day of my life. I’ll explain the best part later.
Here is the worst part.
It was 4 am and I started crying. I couldn’t stop. My husband just held me all night and then drove me to my doctor’s office the next morning. I could not function physically and/or emotionally. I had lost all sensation in my hands and feet. I was scared and didn’t know what was happening to me.
Diagnosis: Brain tumor? Why else would lose the sensation in your hands and feet. Not according to my doctor. It was STRESS from work/ life and my body was telling me to slow down and breath. I had not had a good night sleep in about 2 years, taking two sleeping pills and only sleeping a maximum of 2 hours. I was exhausted and couldn’t find a way out of this mess I had created in my life.
Prescription: She wrote “off work due to stress for 2 months”. This was just the beginning of my time off, we would re-evaluate in 2 months to see how I was doing. I needed to go home, rest and find myself again. She did not prescribe any medication such as anti-anxiety or anti-depressants because she trusted that I would find my way out once I was able to rest. I needed to continue the sleeping pills for now, but start weaning myself off once I was able to fall asleep by myself again. I set an appointment for 2 months later for a recheck.
Feeling completely loss and helpless, what did I do?
I came home and cried. I was not prepared to deal with stress and I didn’t know how to cope. I had panic attacks numerous times a day and could not even go to the grocery store by myself. I had never experienced anything like this and I considered myself as someone who was very strong emotionally. In the last 2 years of my life, all self-care I used to do (exercise, eating properly, hanging out with family and friends) went out the window so I could work more just to stay afloat in my day job. Work was my number 1 priority.
During my first month of “stress leave”, I repainted the inside of my entire house. I needed to keep busy. I started listening to the Hay House summit to keep my mind occupied. I felt so much shame and guilt for leaving my co-workers behind to pick up my workload. It was during those days that I heard Nick Ortner speak about “tapping”. Being curious in nature, I started researching what this “tapping” thing was. I always believe in energy work and tapping sounded like another energy modality I could try.
How did I try tapping?
For two weeks, I would drive to the Bonshaw trail and find a quiet spot to sit by the river. I would tap, even if I wasn’t really sure what I was doing. It couldn’t do any harm. Right? I learned that EFT is really forgiving. I would bring up the emotion of shame or guilt that I was feeling about my inability to go to work and I followed the instructions by tapping on all the energy points on my body. Within 2 weeks, I was no longer having panic attack. I will always remember the first time I was able to sleep without a sleeping pill. I had a nap on the couch and when I woke up; I realized I had fallen asleep by myself, without the help of a pill. I knew then that I was on the right track and to keep doing this “tapping” thing.
I started exercising again and I also started meditation. Walks on the beach became part of my routine that summer while I recuperated. Once I returned to work 5 months later, I made the move to a less stressful position. I was seeing life completely differently and was not willing to let the stress of a job/life get to me again like that. Self-care was my number 1 priority.
Why do I say it’s the best day of my life?
Because if I had not reached such a low point in my life to bounce back from, I am not sure I would have listened to my “wake-up call”. I am not sure I would have had the courage to follow my dream to become an EFT Practitioner coach in order to share this wonderful tool with other people. I started removing the things in my life that caused me stress and then I started following my dreams. I started creating Vision Boards. I found an EFT Level 1 and Level 2 course I attended, which was the first step towards my certification. Then I went completely out of my comfort zone and contacted EFT tapping Training Institute and asked Dr. Craig Wiener to be my mentor. One of the best decisions of my life! And while following this process, I tapped regularly on any fears that would come up. I completed my Certification as an EFT Practitioner Coach and can’t wait to see where life will take me next.
I wake up every day thanking the Universe for giving me this lesson in my life. Without it, I would not be who I am today. Walking down the street that day and having that co-worker comment on how peaceful I looked, I knew that I had found myself again.